Ida-Maria - The only girl in the world with mascara phobia

It might sound weird for a girl of my age, but I'm actually in some way scared of mascara (and all kinds of makeup). It's a bit weird, 'cause last year I couldn't live without it. It was somewhere around Halloween last year that I stopped using it. It felt unnecessary in some way. But now to my point: Last night was the final of a music competition, and a lot of people I know were in it. It was also a disco so I made my hair wavy. Or well, I didn't, mom helped me, it's not as easy as it seems. And when my hair was done my mom handed me a mascara. My gaze went from the mascara to my mom with an expression that probably said "ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY???!!!". Then she just sighed and said "Come on, Ida. You're going out, it's okay to wear it then." And after a lot of hesitation I put it on and made a mental note NOT to put on eyeliner too. But sure as hell, somehow the eyeliner just ended up in my hand and I put that on too. I know that if I put on mascara, for example, I can't stop putting on other kinds of makeup too, and then I'll end up like I-don't-know-what.

Anyways, the music final was amazing, everyone was awesome. There were five competitors from my class. Hannes - who played all alone, And Sandra, Freddie, Nils and Louise (and Moa, she's not in my class, but she was awesome anyways)- who played together as a group. There were four other groups too, and the winner won 5000 Swedish kronor (SeK). Hannes won, and I'm really happy for that, he deserved it. I have to admit, the first time he played his song I almost cried. It was beautiful.

Now there's just three days to go to my fifteenth birthday. I can't say I'm actually longing for it... I wouldn't mind staying fourteen for another year. I don't like getting older... It just feels like time goes so fast after you're thirteen. I'm not sure I like it. But on some level I have to say it's a little fun with all the presents and stuff. But a real birthday present would be if Silverstein came to Sweden on tour, but we all know that with my luck, that's never going to happen...

bye people